Life is rolling along fast... I can not believe Christmas is almost here and neither can my tree as it stands in the corner of my living room, not in a stand and undecorated. In fact, I am praying that Magoo and Daisy have not eaten it by the time I get home. I really tried to not do a tree this year but Morgan was not having it. I really have no presents to go under it. As usual, Riley has already bought and used all of her's , Noah wants nothing, and Morgan wants everything but dad keeps buying it and beating me to the punch.. not a bad plan ...
On the training front... it is going well. I am planning on doing the Louisana marathon in hopes of a BQ. I am not even sure if I want to go to Boston but I want the option. Some days I feel like it is in the bag when I can finish a 20 mile run with a 7:40 mile and other days I feel like it is no way it is going to happen. Either way, I have really enjoyed the training and that is all that matters. I loved getting some great runs in with Noah before he moved onto basketball season. I see tri season looming in the future and still unsure if I want to go there. My thoughts are I will start the training and if I love it, Onward I will go. If I don't really like it, I am done. I am through trying to force myself to enjoy something or push myself to do something I don't want.
On the relationship front, things are fantastic. Everyday I am in a little awe that I am where I am and not sure how I got there but I am loving it. It is a great place and one I feel extremely lucky to be in. I have been a little sad by the lack of support from what I thought were friends. Lots of so called friends, I haven't spoken to in months but I guess that speaks volumes right there. I also have a few that just don't seem to offer any type of support in my new life changes which I think is sad because I feel like I am the type of person that would encourage others to do what makes them happy. BUT then I do have those that are sharing in this happiness with me and it is awesome. The good thing about being an adult is you have learned that you do not need approval from anyone else.
On my family front, I love my kids beyond imagine and love this time that I have been able to spend with them stress free. I love that Riley and I have had so many great experiences these past few months as she becomes the wonderful adult that she is
And work is great... insanely busy as always but not sure I would have it any other way.
As 2013 winds down, I am happy and hopeful for a fantastic 2014 and I can already tell you it is going to be full of a few surprises... well at least for you anyway...
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Change....
So, I have a new blog. I know you are riveted but I like to write and share thoughts so I guess it will stick around a little longer.
I have had a lot of changes... Sometimes when you stop and look at your life and things are not working and you are not happy, you need to make a change. Sometimes that change is really hard. Especially when you have a lot of factors to go into it. But, as I always tell my kids "You are responsible for you, you are responsible for your own happiness" It is up to you to look out for yourself and make your life what is it. I often joke and say when I die, I want to make sure that I have squeezed every bit out of this life. It is a philosophy that I really try to follow. I don't want to die thinking IS THAT IT??? and that is how I had been thinking 12 weeks ago. I wasn't happy with my training and many aspects of my life. I love my job even though I work constantly and I love my kids but there were many things leaving me with that empty feeling. So empty that I wasn't even enjoying training or racing.
So... as hard as it was and it was... really really hard. Harder than my divorce, I made some changes and yes Chuk and I broke up. I know many of you are wondering. And with change, you receive some judgement and negative comments and everyone loves to form their opinion. Everyone thinks they know what happened and what should happen and they form their own thoughts and opinions. No one knows but us. I was also very quiet about it because I just didn't feel like I needed to share. Plus it hurt and I didn't want to share. I also didn't care if people were forming opinions. This is not my first time at the rodeo. I was married for 15 years, raised an adult, and raising 2 other kids. I didn't owe anyone an explanation but myself.
So... fast forward 12 weeks and even though I still carry around some stress, guilt, and heartache. The change is good, really really good. I am extremely happy and it is evident in everything I do. Maybe that is why I am running so fast. I am soaking up and enjoying every minute of it because without going into details of my life, I felt like I was due. Long overdue.
So today... you be the change that you seek. Do something exciting, do something that scares you, make sure you can answer is this it???
I have had a lot of changes... Sometimes when you stop and look at your life and things are not working and you are not happy, you need to make a change. Sometimes that change is really hard. Especially when you have a lot of factors to go into it. But, as I always tell my kids "You are responsible for you, you are responsible for your own happiness" It is up to you to look out for yourself and make your life what is it. I often joke and say when I die, I want to make sure that I have squeezed every bit out of this life. It is a philosophy that I really try to follow. I don't want to die thinking IS THAT IT??? and that is how I had been thinking 12 weeks ago. I wasn't happy with my training and many aspects of my life. I love my job even though I work constantly and I love my kids but there were many things leaving me with that empty feeling. So empty that I wasn't even enjoying training or racing.
So... as hard as it was and it was... really really hard. Harder than my divorce, I made some changes and yes Chuk and I broke up. I know many of you are wondering. And with change, you receive some judgement and negative comments and everyone loves to form their opinion. Everyone thinks they know what happened and what should happen and they form their own thoughts and opinions. No one knows but us. I was also very quiet about it because I just didn't feel like I needed to share. Plus it hurt and I didn't want to share. I also didn't care if people were forming opinions. This is not my first time at the rodeo. I was married for 15 years, raised an adult, and raising 2 other kids. I didn't owe anyone an explanation but myself.
So... fast forward 12 weeks and even though I still carry around some stress, guilt, and heartache. The change is good, really really good. I am extremely happy and it is evident in everything I do. Maybe that is why I am running so fast. I am soaking up and enjoying every minute of it because without going into details of my life, I felt like I was due. Long overdue.
So today... you be the change that you seek. Do something exciting, do something that scares you, make sure you can answer is this it???
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